one of my biggest interests is in my little pony grimdark and gorefics. in this page i will discuss my favorites and offer direct links for those with similar interests. while the website is a work in progress, eventually this will be an alphabetized list.
as a childhood abuse survivor, the image of childhood soaked in blood, the idea of someone you thought was safe turning on you - that was my life. obsessed with MLP:FIM since its premeire, i was drawn in by promises of a dark underbelly. seeing my favorite ponies in this same situation, dramatized, being told i was brave or cool for enduring the horrors, it was all so fascinating to me. the weird, surreal knowing that i'd felt these forms of pain as well. wetting oneself from prolonged abuse, being told you were weak for not being able to take it without crying... ahhh, memories <\3
soon, my interest in seeing ponies being hurt was a bit obsessive, and it led to a massive interest in fictionalized gore in general. so much ridiculous tearzah-inspired, thick thighed hoes getting cut up and gutspilled and crying! honestly, no, i don't think it was a massively healthy interest for a kid to have... it was tied to my past """""proshipping""""" - exploring my homosexuality, incest, rape and more in this horny space where its MY coping mechanism I got to be the rapist, dammit! now i see these desires for what they were, a confused, isolated, hypersexual kid wanting to constantly relive and reexamine what happened in a hundred different autistic interests, reflecting back what my dad put me through.